A safe story

A picture is worth 1000 words. This safe has been through a lot. Tell its story.

Image credit: “safe” – © 2007 Paul Keller – made available under Attribution 2.0 Generic

 

Hello. My name is Rusty. Well that’s not my actual name. I don’t have a real name apart from my model number, but I don’t want you to bore with that.
Anyway what you want to hear is my story, right? Okay, then listen closely, boys and girls, because I am about to share it with you.

It’s been an ordinary day at home. My home is, in fact a place humans would describe as ‘work’ but I am not human. To me, home is, where I am. And I am at the local bank in a tiny street in Nice, France. Usually all I do is sitting around all day, sleeping, until some female or male human pokes me so I open up. They store different things inside my belly. But most of the time it’s coloured paper and paper tubes filled with little metal plates. It can get quite heavy from time to time, but I am a strong guy. It takes a lot more than shredded trees and metal things to break me. The humans know that, too, but still they make sure they’re not storing too much. Maybe they think it’s not clever to do so. Well, if I could talk, I could reassure them that I am, what I am, (a) safe. So while I’ve been sleeping, the males and females did their boring work and the time passed by. In my dreams I visited all the places I hear the humans talk about. Sometimes they put pretty pictures up the wall, so when I get to see these, I dream of them as well. Most of my dreams are beautiful, I seldom have nightmares. After all what should I be afraid of? I am tall and solid.

Or at least I thought that. When the night crept upon the building like a dark shadow, the sounds became less and less until there was almost no sound at all. This is my second favourite part of the day, when everything is quiet and dark and different. I enjoy the music of the night, the soft hums of electronic devices on standby, buzzing insects flying towards the neon lights outside…it was magnificent. Humans usually don’t appreciate it. They’re busy with being busy and don’t stop to truly relax. It’s quite sad, when you think about it. However I shouldn’t remain alone. Muffled voices and steps approached me. There was no light. It wasn’t morning, no birds were singing, which means that something was wrong. Humans never visit my home during the night. And they surely don’t try to open me during the night!

But I was helpless. They kicked me, beat me, tried to crack my defense mechanism and eventually they started shouting. Although I was scared, it also angered me. All I wanted to do was to sleep and enjoy the silence. And now those stinky humans are abusing me. I wish I’d have a mouth and arms, so I could fight them back. But I don’t and my only trump card was my weight. They won’t be able to lift me. But humans are clever. They think. They produce ideas. They find ways.

Then suddenly I felt something cold. There were beeping noises –

The bang was deafening and left me unconscious. It was dark, so dark. I didn’t know where I was. I couldn’t see a thing. My stomach was empty and open for the world to see. The world could see my vulnerable insides and the humans chose to steal what I was sworn to protect… I failed.

 

My name is Rusty and I was (a) safe and this is my story.

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Challenging myself

Hey there!

Recently, I’ve briefly talked about my difficulties finding something that interests me, as well as others.

A friend told me, that it doesn’t really matter what I talk about, as long as I like it. Okay we we’re talking about starting a youtube channel back then, but doing videos on youtube talking is awfully similar to having a blog, right? One uses pictures and sound to talk and bloggers mainly use words. I think while they’re still profoundly different, youtubers as well as writers often question themselves and are unsure what they should talking or writing about.

And that’s what I would like to try. But to make it more interesting, I came up with a challenge:

1. Writing about the things I like

2. Listen to a song which is between 3.30 and 6 minutes long – if I’m not past the first 3 sentences by then, which indicate the topic, save it as a draft and come back to it later, when the timing might be better and start with something new instead.

[I’ve been listening to One Night in Bangkok, which is 6.02 minutes long and that’s how far I came, so I’m continuing this post]

3. Don’t stress myself about the length. Quality over quantity!

4. Don’t spent more than 30 minutes per post, unless I can’t stop writing, because I have a lot to say – often I find myself sitting in front of the keyboard for 30 minutes without typing more than 3 words, maybe that’s the hint to either put an end to the post or postpone it.

5. Have fun, whatever happens!

 

So I’m trying to stick to these rules as long as I can. Some of them seem fundamental, but if I’m not writing them for me to read and re-read again and again, I think I’ll just forget them.

Which I don’t want, because right now I think it is really helpful to me and it feels right. So until these rules come naturally to me, I will follow them. Perhaps I’ll come up with even better ones in the future, but that’s not something I want to think about right now. I’m going down this road, step by step, word by word, bird by bird…

 

What are your rules when writing? Do you have any? How do you feel about them?

 

— Baylie

Almost back…again

So I got inactive again – which I didn’t do intentionally. It just came over me. The ever-pending question ‘What should I write about?’

I’ve spent the past ‘inactive’ weeks figuring things out and collect topics that interest me. So what I’ve wanted to say – there are some posts

which I began but which are still unfinished. I’ll work on that. In the meantime I also hope to get well again, because I’m currently sick, which

I absolutely hate, because I’m seldom sick. Anyway I’m looking forward on writing here again and also reading other interesting blogs.

If you have any recommendations, feel free to post them in the comments, I will appreciate it :)

 

Until then, I hope you lots are all well and creative!

— Baylie

Back again – finally!

Hello guys!

The past weeks I was very busy with finishing projects for university. Now the semester is finally over and I can enjoy my summer holidays! Which means I will write more and more frequently – I hope. To be honest I missed writing a lot. The whole time I was exhausted and I felt uncreative and empty inside. Although there was just a lot of stuff I needed to let out via writing. To get into writing after a long hiatus, I started a ’30 days of writing’ challenge, which is more like writing a diary. My writing needs a lot of improving and in order to improve I have to train it. So I start by writing daily, even if it’s just answering questions like ‘what did you do today?’. I think it doesn’t really matter what I write, as long as I write. I believe it’s a lot easier to develop if I make daily writing a habit. Probably I won’t make a post everyday for I want to write about specific things instead of just clearing my head (I have this little journal for that), but that’s okay for me. Today I’ll start with something that’s been on my mind for some time.
One of my project for university was to portrait a person without necessarily showing him/her. So we had to shoot some meaningful photographs with things that person loves. For exampe: You’re portraying your grandmother, who loves knitting and tea. In order to show her passions you would take pictures of wool, sweaters, tea pots or that nice comfy chair she always sits in.
I chose to portrait a fictional, stereotypical drama queen. Someone who brags about that pink limousine her father bought her, someone who goes hiking in high heels, spends an awful lot of money on keeping her so called status as queen bee.
Just to be clear: I don’t know someone like this and I don’t mind rich people. I just wanted to create someone most people wouldn’t like, because she’s just too shallow. That girl might as well be poor. A pink (rented) limousine just happened to park in front of my block, which gave me the idea for the whole concept.
Anyway I wondered if I could take this fictional character to a whole new level by creating a fake online identity. You know, someone doing selfies all the time, talking about fashion, nail polish and how much fun it is to be an ignorant teenager – a stereotype we all know too well. Since this idea haunted me for a long time, I think I’ll give it a shot. I might broaden my horizont and become more aware of what impact my actions have. You are all welcome to the freak show, as soon as I gathered enough material to make this happen. At the moment I’m not sure, whether I’ll create a second blog, a twitter or a tublr account. No youtube, since videos would need too much preparation and my room isn’t exact the home of some rich chick.

Ah I’m so excited!

See you soon
–Baylie

Bodies.

 

picture by asurocks.de

Two days ago I came across a German blog I haven’t forget since then. It’s called Asurocks. And while I’ve only read one article (yet), I like the writer.

She writes about interesting stuff. At least in my opinion. How many times did you feel fat compared to the super-thin models on tv, in a magazine etc?

Asurocks says “NO!” to the idea that a specific bodytype should only wear specific clothes. (For example: Skinny jeans for skinny legs, hotpants only for those with toned legs, etc.)
Generally she wears what she likes and she doesn’t listen to those who tell her to hide her body beneath a pile of clothes just because she isn’t a size 0.
I think more people should follow her example, don’t you? This also applies for those who are rather skinny. Don’t let anybody talk you into wearing clothes you actually don’t like.
If you want to wear a shirt that makes you look even thinner – do it!
Because in the end nobody has a right to judge you just because they don’t like your clothes. Your body, your clothes, your choice!

Here are two other links to similar blogs (written in English) I enjoyed:

http://www.curvestokill.com/

http://www.nadiaaboulhosn.com/

 

What do you think about body-type-related-dressing-rules? Do you always wear what you want to wear?
Or do you sometimes wear clothes you think are socially acceptable?

 

— Baylie

 

 

 

O Friend, where art thou?

Where is my friend when I need you most?

Gone away.

– Ordinary World by Duran Duran

 

Friend: Do you know what? I’m in love with this guy […]

Me: Oh that’s great!

What I’m really thinking: Oh s/he deserves this so much! | Oh no, say goodbye to your friend for a while.

 

Why exactly do I have these thoughts?

One of my friends being in love often means for me, that they’ll spent every waking hour talking about their love interest.
Or when they’re finally a couple they stick together all the time. All of the time.
While I can totally understand this, for I have been in love myself, I don’t understand why having a boy- or girlfriend means that
you just abandon your old friends? I wonder whether it’s just my experience or if other single friends know it as well. Whenever my best friend is in a relationship she practically has no time for me at all. And if she finds the time, she either talks about her lover or she invites me to join her with her lover.
Sounds quite nice, right? Yeah. I’m always a fifth wheel, because she and her girl/boyfriend will always do anything else but making out or talk about how much they love each other OR if I’m lucky, I get a little small talk. So I’d rather not meet my friend the first weeks of her new relationship. Because for me it means spending a whole afternoon watching my friend enjoying herself, while I’m bored to death.

Have I done anything to prevent this?

Well. Not really. I told her that I always feel like I don’t belong there,  but that I’m still happy for her. My friend feels sorry, but she can’t really help herself. She is a lover of the extreme. It’s either pure obsession or pure disinterest. There is nothing in between.
It is probably also my fault. I’m not good at talking about my true feelings. Writing – yes. Conversation – no. In her eyes I’m the most strongest person she knows (emotionally). I don’t cry in public, I don’t let sadness take over me, I don’t let the bad things influence the way I interact with my surroundings. I keep anything negative to myself. Locked away.
Telling her that I feel neglected when she’s in a relationship just seems so strange. I’m scared that she feels bad for me or something.I also don’t know HOW much it really bothers me. Because in the long-run we will both be happy once the ‘making out’ weeks have passed and she can bear being away from her boy/girlfriend. I guess the selfish-me wants all the attention, although logical-me knows that being neglected is just a temporary state. It’s not like I have some serious issues anyway.

I’m always okay. I’m the Queen of okay.

(And I know that I’m actually lying to myself.)

That’s it for now.

— Baylie

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Communication design & projects

Hello there!

I’ve mentioned in earlier posts that I am a communication design student. This time I want to take some time to explain what a communication designer is and what I really do, whenever when I’m talking about ‘stuff for university’. Most people think it’s the same as graphic design, but graphic design really is just a part of communication design. At my university, communication design includes:

  •  graphic design (like ads, posters, charts,)
  • typography
  • editorial design (like newspapers, magazines, books)
  • illustration
  • photography
  • packaging design
  • animation
  • audio/ video (films, ads)
  • webdesign

and there are surely a lot of other fields I left out. But these are the basic things you learn about in the first and second semester. I am now in the second semester and I couldn’t be happier. I love my course and I like the professors as well as the people. Everyday I learn so much and communication design has a huge influence. I don’t look at ads the same way I did before. I notice bad designs and sometimes I think about how to make it better. But I still make a lot of mistakes, which is totally fine. You learn from mistakes.

So what do I do at the moment?

I work at multiple projects right now, for every course has it’s own project. Some courses only last 5 weeks and then a new course starts, so sometimes work has to be finished really fast.

My current 5-week-project is to make a fashion website about ‘fandom’ t-shirts and stories. I have a lot of Doctor Who related t-shirts and I often meet new people who talk to me because of my Doctor Who shirts. So over the past 8months I have some stories to tell. And these short stories will be featured at my fashion website. Next week we all have to present what we’ve done. I’m not finished yet, but I’m confident that I will be finished by Monday.

I’m also creating a graphic novel about Helena Curtens, one of the last alleged witches burned in North-Rhine-Westphalia, Germany. The novel is due to July and I’m very excited although there is a lot of work ahead of me! I also plan to share some concepts and pages with you guys, so keep your eyes open ;)

Another project is a magazine design. We got some articles which should be featured in a magazine and newspaper. So I have to choose a good font, a layout and I also have to make some appealing charts. It sure is a lot of work and will cost me some nerves, haha.

For photography class we have to do

  1. portraits with hard light, soft light, soft light + hard light
  2. a night shot
  3. a picture where shadows are an essential part of the photograph
  4. fashion photography

I’ve already done the portraits which was a lot of fun and I’m quite satisfied with the results.

Then there’s a video project we have to do. We still don’t know what we want to do and slowly I’m getting really nervous, because shooting a (short) film takes quite some time. You need to get the people, locations, props and then the actual shooting which could take a few day as well as days to edit the whole thing.

Last but not least, we have to design a package that contains a specific need. I for example chose health. So when you look at my package you should think that it has something to do with health and being healthy. It is quite challenging, because how would you package health?

 


 

Now it’s time to show some things! These are results from my third 5-week-project course of my first semester. We had do design three novels (cover + few pages) and a book featuring some pictures.

I chose to re-design Ray Bradbury’s Fahrenheit 451. I also added 2 fictional books in order to form a trilogy.

The other book is about one of my favourite films: We’ll take Manhattan. The film (and my fictional book) is about the relationship of famous photographer David Bailey and supermodel Jean Shrimpton in the 60s, where both changed the history of fashion photography with their NY photographs.

Fahrenheit 451

Cover_Bildband01   Cover_Bildband02   Bildbandseiten04

(sorry for the bad pictures, I quickly took them with my mobile phone)

 

So that’s it from now! Have a nice day!

— Baylie